Oh that my doubting flesh would die!I hear Gods word, His truth; He has made me to know the wonders of His love, yet I still deny Him before men, and even to myself. May God have mercy on the wicked man that I am. The depths of my destruction frighten me to the core, and cause me to flee back to the cross, with sorrowful tears because of my leaving it. How can I hear words of universal impact and turn away from them minutes later! With just an ounce of my wickedness I am worthless even to raise my brow to heaven. When I think myself wise, God proves I am not. When I think myself powerful, God shows me my utter weakness. When I try to take control, God shows it is His will that matters. When I fall down before Jesus and cry out to Him in the anguish of my soul, then He pours out my worthless wisdom to the ground, humiliates my power, and shows me all things are in His power. That is when God gives me heavenly wisdom, the divine power of the holy Spirit, and faith in Him to conquer nations! All flesh is powerless against the authority of God's scripture, including mine. May God use that word to cut to the marrow of my soul, and pain me until I offer up my sins to Him. Let no vise keep me from His work on earth. No power of hell or heaven can now keep me from His hand. His redemption is everlasting! Praise the most holy God of all!!!!!