The Desires of Flesh!

I was reminded today how sometimes I wish I could have a fling with my old life. Just for a short time to go back and live a month or so of "fun" with no worries. The Utopian romance I find myself in tells me that "Your old life was so much more fun, so much easier, God won't care, He died for you, and you can't lose that!" It says, "Remember all the friends you had, the parties you went to. It was a blast!!! Now your life is boring. You live a good life, you owe yourself some fun!!! C'mon and try it out, you can come back to God again later. The world is here, it's waiting to please you." Fallacy of fallacy's!!! I do this from time to time and marvel at the fun and pleasure that the world gave me, and stands ready to give me. Then God intervenes, it never fails, God always gives me His perception on the matter. His Spirit teaches my conscience to pipe up and say, "NO! You are remembering the 'pleasures' you had in sin. Take a look at who YOU were then." I am reminded that at that point in my life I was a wretched man. I used people. People were no more that tools for me to manipulate however I found fit in order to receive my pleasurable lust. I lied, I deceived, I hurt people, and the worst of all I had no twinge of guilt in my heart. The only time I ever felt remorse for my wicked acts was when I was found out, and others could see the filthy creature I was. The ones who loved me most wept for my soul while I laughed behind their backs! Oh the rottenness of my flesh. This is Lance Cogan. This is who I am in the core of MY being.
"But wait; now look," says the Spirit of the Most High, "Look who I have made you to be." And without pride, because I have no goodness in me, but with thankfulness I take a good look at myself and who God has made me to be. God has made me to love others, and even my enemies. I desire to see Him pleased, I desire to see the world made holy to Him, O that others would see the Christ I know. He has made me a man that my friends call trustworthy and faithful. He has made me a man that the unbelievers take council from, men who once looked down on me, because of my irresponsibility in the world, now ask me questions and desire guidance. Men who the world calls wise have been put to shame by the words God has entrusted to my mouth. The world is far from me. I have been redeemed and called away from this world. I am being sanctified in Christ. I have reproved old men and they have listened because they see me living according to the gospel I proclaim. How powerful is God!!!
"Wait" says the Spirit once more, "That is not all my son. Behold your God. Look intently at the cross where He died. See Him a perfect sacrifice; see Him the Lamb of God! He has died for your sins. He suffered so you could be free! Seek not the sins that work to make His death vain. See the Lord! See your Savior, my son. Look past the world; stress your eyes to look heavenward, and see the face of God. The world will not seem so important then. The sin will not look so glorious then. The only care you'll have will be to see a smile on the Redeemers face!" Praise God!!!!!! I have been washed by the blood of the worthy lamb!!! I am counted worthy!!!!
PRAISE GOD!
In order for me to live in the sins of the world I must first become the man I was. I must first deny God's power of salvation in my life. Then I must lie to the accountability God has put in my life, I must deceive and use others. Then when I have fallen to the man I was, I can indulge in the pleasurable wickedness of who I was. I deceitful user once again. Tell me what life you think to be more glorious!